Inspired by life's ebb and flow...

I don’t generally dwell on little insults from small people but I do have a couple of suggested guidelines to help you maximize your insolence towards me. First off, take a look at the man in the mirror and ask him, “Am I as wonderful as I perceive myself to be or am I using the proceeding remarks as a tool - a gateway – a method to lift my social status out of the trenches?” Then establish a graph or perhaps a pie-chart to help you organize the reasoning why you think you are so far above me. Use blue to represent yourself and red for me. If you are more intelligent than me, fill in a wedge of the pie, as if we were playing trivial pursuit. If you are better looking, funnier, nicer, more outgoing, and have potential to meet girls, color in the appropriate area for each factor. Pick some things of your own if you’d like, as this is all objective in your own mind. Take a look around at your environment. Does the majority support your criticisms? Will you really achieve anything with your negative talk or will you exhaust your efforts by starting another battle that you cannot win? Realistically, is there something you can do or say to phase me that is based on anything other than envy? If your answers to these questions have made you eligible to disapprove of me in a public forum then by all means, please, bump your gums all you’d like. But at least have enough pride for yourself to say things to my face, as we all know cowardice earns no respect from anyone.

The Presidential race this year was hard-fought and Bush is victorious again. I still think Kerry could have done a better job in these next four years, which is why I voted that way. However, seeing the popular vote almost split in half, I find myself anxious to see if the Bush administration might do some things differently. My biggest problem with Bush is lack of accountability. Now, if there were a democratic congress then it wouldn’t be such a big deal but as it stands, the president has too much power. You may hear me say in jest that its time to run to Canada but honestly, I’m not nearly that fanatical and I really want to believe that the next four years can be better than the last four, but I will believe it when I see it. It frustrates me that so many people are willing to sacrifice financial stability to elect a man who they feel has higher moral values, especially when electing a President who has no problem deploying our military into situations they shouldn’t be in, which in and of itself seems somewhat morally reprehensible. Anyway, in short, Bush won and although I will never jump on the bandwagon, this cannot be changed so its time to accept it as truth and just pray that this guy will do the right things this time around.

Last night I saw The Grudge. I was entertained with it but thought it was somewhat lacking in plot. House is haunted, everyone dies, yada yada. Some of the special effects where kinda neat but again nothing to write home about. Andrea was scared throughout the thing which was funny I guess although I cant really blame her; Asian kids and black cats are some freaky shit. : ) Good times… Good times.

This week has felt a little strange for some reason. There are lingering effects from Saturday’s party that seem like they will last for a while. Maybe that was a pivotal moment for me for some reason that I don’t understand yet. There was a situation that I stepped into with no ill intentions but ended up breaking down reality for some people. I don’t mind speaking the truth in situations like that and that’s why so many people have thrown props my way for it. I guess I just feel like people should evaluate themselves a little more critically than they do others. Is it so hard to see yourself as you really are instead of what you really hope others may see? I don’t get why people put on this persona of being so cool and badass all the time when they are cool and badass when they are just themselves. Maybe I made a girl cry but at the same time, maybe it showed her that it’s only cool to be a whore until someone treats you like one. Saturday also brought forth the first time I admitted or accepted my latest crush. Maybe its gone on for awhile or maybe this is brand new. Most likely I started to feel differently talking to her while walking down Morningside Drive. I don’t pretend to understand. All I can do is ride the wave and see if I am dragged out to sea or pulled into her gentle shores.

It is my understanding that cougar basketball is amongst us again, as of today. Odds are they are going to suck major balls again this year but that certainly won’t stop me from being a fan. Basketball season works better for me since I tend to work late because the games are in the evening and there are a shit-ton of games so if I miss a few, its whatever. The cooler weather coincides with this phenomenon each year as well, which makes the cougar juice that much better ; )

This was a long post.
Love ya’ll.