Inspired by life's ebb and flow...

Take a deep breath right this second and never forget all of its intricacies, which will leave you with a reference point for when you look back later and wonder what the hell happened. If by doing this, something familiar comes to mind immediately, embrace it for a moment, then before you let it go, think about why now is like then and why you connected these two instances. Then exhale violently as if you had taken a gulp of death and are rigorously trying to rid your soul of the demons that clung inside of it. Make a note of this event as well and think of this when you walk in the park on a beautiful Sunday afternoon or the next time you kiss someone passionately. If you walk in the park on a crappy Saturday or just kiss someone half-assed then don’t remember any of this, as mediocrity is unacceptable. Now repeat this process about 14000 times through the course of the day and everything will be alright.

Happy you’re becoming a lunatic day!

So there you were, lying in bed, half sick and 3/5 tormented by blistering mental anguish when you finally reached your breaking point. it was a time for taking action and you were fully aware of it. damn... 2:47 in the morning. why am i so wide awake? several minutes later you are awakened from your nonsleeping, yet cautiously resting sense of unawareness by that hot-ass girl from next door beating the hell out of her boyfriend in the parking lot again. damn... it must be Saturday. You still do nothing but you stir a little and rest your leg behind your neck because you’re flexible as hell and can do that if and when you’d like. Yoga didn’t work for shit and you knew neither would tantra or acupuncture, which was good because you were sore, unfocused and out of needles, respectively. then, that defining moment hit you hard and you realized you were losing your mind. you didn’t know why but this was different than the times you lost it before or the times that pretty girls just told you that you had and also contrasting to the time that you tried to lose your mind just as an excuse for all the stupid shit you had pulled prior to then. (thought you were slick didya? busted!) So you woke the rest of the way up and started to count things in your room but as it turns out you only possess four or less of everything you own so you came to the conclusion that you would buy all the pencils at Walgreens tomorrow in case this happened again and then next time you lose your mind in the middle of the night while partially sick and temporarily demented at least you would have something worth sharpening. so just enjoy your new roll in life, thank God you aren’t “creepy” and...

Have a happy you’re becoming a loon, ya fuckin’ loon, day!!

Happy straw in the bag day!

You are hungry. You have a couple of bucks in change that you found under the seat of your friend's car while he gave you a ride home the other day. He saw you take it, even though you think you got away with it. He hates you for taking it and will hunt you down in exactly 8 hours, but you can’t worry about it. There will be time to run and hide later on. Right now you must stay focused on what is at stake here… cheap eats. you ponder it for a long while, which is really just a short while that feels like just a tick more than two eternities, because you haven’t eaten in what feels like weeks, although its been more like hours. mcdonalds? no... too clowny and happy. jack in the box? BAAAD memory of a #8 combo. Hell, you knew right after you ordered it, when they took your picture and then had to make phone calls and confer with cookbooks to make it, that it would be questionable. but you survived it. way to go champ! burger king... subway... arby's... all decent places that you just arent feeling so you do the next best thing... Wendy's. So you may as well get a combo... you are dying of thirst afterall. you don’t want fries but its part of the deal so you order. " number 1... coke... no biggie... trau." This is it. Last time you told yourself that you would not be made to look like a jackass and be placed in a compromising situation by some high school dropout burger punk. "I fuckin dare them to make me look like a fool" you think as you pull up to the 2nd window. and then it happens. "here is your drink sir" window closed in your face and you are there like a fuckin 'tard with no straw for your drink. You stay calm but cant help but think,
"GODDAMN BURGER PUNKS!! GO TO HELL... GO TO HELL AND DIE." Then they ask you if youd like ketchup and you lose it. you didnt even know your 6'1" frame could fit through that little window and maybe didn’t realize it until you were beating the non-english speaking, french fry jockey to the ground, all while smothering him with honey mustard and barbeque sauce packets, screaming "straw goes with the drink... not in the bag, asshole!!!" Doing the crime gets you no time 'cause the jury understands that little red-headed bitch is the instigator here. You cant hold a man responsible for his actions in such a situation. It just wouldn’t be right.

So yeah... have a happy straw in the bag day!!!

Happy impeccable white cat day!!

5% of the general cat population consists of white cats. 15-40% of these pure white cats have one or two blue-eyes. Of those white cats with one or two blue eyes, 60-80% are deaf. The most incredible white cat youve seen though is not deaf and does the cutest thing with her non-blue eyes. You remember that time at reliant stadium, at the soccer game with the crappy half-time, that all the supposed animal lovers you know threw ice and cracker jacks at her as they stomped their feet as if to say "be gone with you, beautiful white cat. we hate you" Then they laughed and felt happy with themselves for being that way. You were there too though and before the rambunctious crowd could trample her, you picked her up and held her close while confronting your tactless friends who laughed as the cat scratched you on the face. But you didn’t drop her. After all, this was no place for such a being and you had no choice but to get her out of there. So you did what you needed to do and as she sat there next to you later on, content and purring, as if to apologize for the scar she had given you, which you would probably carry for a lifetime, you couldn’t help but scoff at yourself for the way you feel for her. You were in love with the person she was before she unexpectedly and instantly turned into a cat and now you’re not sure what to do. So you throw her a ball of yarn and she looks at you sarcastic and disappointedly and you cry together... forever.

Happy impeccable white cat day!!

Lots of good things are going on around me. I am happier than I have been in a very long time. However, things that have hurt me in the recent past still hurt me just as much today. i envy the blind and deaf for the ignorant, yet blissful worlds they can make for themselves. damn, seeing what i see really hurts. like deep cuts with salt and another deep cut... with salt. "no... you are totally wrong" people will tell me. who gives a shit? lie... be honest... it still hurts.

damn... warped tour has the most incredible lineup this year. ready?

1208
20 X
Alexisonfire
Alkaline Trio
Allister
All Rights Reserved
Amber Pacific
Anatomy of A Ghost
Another Damn Dissapointment
Anti-Flag
Arkham
ASG
Atmosphere
Audio Karate
Avenged Sevenfold
Bad Religion
The Beautiful Mistake
Big D and the Kids
Billy Talent
Blackfire
Brazil
Break Dance Vietnam
Break the Silence
The Briggs
Bouncing Souls
Boys Night Out
The Casualties
Chronic Future
The Code
Codie
Coheed and Cambria
The Commercials
Crowned King
Don't Look Down
Duane Peters and The Hunns
Dynamite Boy
The Early November
Eight Fingers Down
The Eyeliners
A Faith Called Chaos
Fall Out Boy
Fighting Jacks
Flogging Molly
From Autumn to Ashes
From First to Last
The F#*k Ups
Go Betty Go
The God Awfuls
Good Charlotte
Guttermouth
Happy Campers
Hazen Street
Hidden in Plain View
His Orange
The Hurt Process
IMA Robot
In So Far
The (International) Noise Conspiracy
Jackson
Jersey
Juliette & the Licks
Keg
The Kinison
Lakeside
Lars Frederiksen and the Bastards
Letter Kills
Lennon
Lillix
Lylha
Madison
Mae
Matchbook Romance
The Matches
Melee
Minority
Montys Fan Club
Motion City Soundrack
Much the Same
My Chemical Romance
New Found Glory
NOFX
Northstar
Only Crime
Opiate 4 the Masses
Oreon
O're The Ramparts
Over It
Piebald
Pipedown
Planet Smashers
Plans for Revenge
Potluck
Pulley
The Q
The Red West
Reeve Oliver
The Revolution Smile
Rise Against
Rose Hill Drive
Rufio
Sahara Hotnights
Saosin
Senses Fail
Shiner Massive
Side 67
The Silence
Silverstein
Simple Plan
Single Frame
Slowdance
The Snakes, The Cross, The Crown
The Sounds
Split Sense
Stars Hide Fire
Straight Outta Junior High
Stole Your Woman
Story of the Year
Suffocate Faster
Sugarcult
The Swear
Taking Back Sunday
A Thorn For Every Heart
Thursday
Thought Riot
Tiger Army
The Tossers
Trophy Scars
Truth in Fiction
Underminded
Unit F
The Vandals
Victory Within
Wanted Dead
Washington Social Club
Windsor
Yellowcard
Yesterday's Rising

Holy Crap, im so stoked!!

We were walking
Just the other day
It was so hot outside
You could fry an egg
Remember you were talking
And I watched as sweat ran down your face
Reached up and I caught it at your chin
Licked my fingertips

We were
We were
Just wasting time
Let the hours roll by
Doing nothing for the fun
A little taste of the good life
Whether right or wrong
Makes us want to stay, stay, stay, stay, stay for awhile

Then later on the sun began to fade
And then, well, the clouds rolled over our heads
And it began to rain
Oh, we were dancing mouths open
We were splashing and the tongue taste
And for a moment this good time would never end

You and me
You and me
Just wasting time
I was kissing you
You were kissing me love
From good day into the moonlight
Now a night so fine
Makes us wanna stay, stay, stay, stay, stay for awhile

Wasting time
I shall miss this thing when it all rolls by
What a day
Wanna stay, stay, stay, stay, stay for awhile

Hey love
Oh, just groping you
Rolling in the mud
Stay a while
Oh come on, love
Wanna stay, stay, stay, stay, stay for awhile

yeah, well, i havent thought about that song in ages but it has gorgeous imagery and reminds me a lot of someone awesome and a really badass time in my life.

happy i hope everyone breaks up right this second day!

so you walk around and see couples places or you talk to the cute girl at that place that youve been to too often lately just so you can talk to that cute girl and it pisses you off. it started out innocent enough, just pissing you off that you had no one but its evolved. you want every last person on earth to have no one special to them but you arent bitter. you arent greedy. you dont want anyone either because then some fuckin kid will hate you for having that special girl. you know what its like to have no one and want everyone. "if everyone would just break it off right this second life would be so kickass" you think as you eat your fajitas for two, half of what will be eaten for lunch tomorrow. youll sit there watching tv programs with people who have that someone and commercials about enhancing your sexual performance. the latter will piss you off more than the former because you know youre multi-orgasmic and can get a girl all the way off with just your pinky finger, in under 2 minutes without penetration, yet there are a bunch of impotant fuckers walking around with spectaculor women who are forced to fake orgasms night after tedious night. fuck them all. they can die and burn for all you care. meanwhile you will just kick back and hope today is the day that it all goes to hell for everyone.

Happy i hope everyone breaks up right this second day!